Hello, readers and subscribers! Many of you have wondered where I’ve been. After my last post, I really dug deep and spent some time pondering the idea of training my brain (and body), being a person of integrity and sticking to my plan. I have spent the last few weeks on an internally focused journey, incorporating excercise into my daily life. (Yes, I said daily.) For many women, especially those of us who are full-time working mothers, the very idea of finding the time to exercise every day is ridiculous. (Unfortunately, this is why we are where we are, girls.) While it did and does require a certain amount of integrity to begin an exercise plan, work it into the family schedule and stick to it, the real gem here is the part about the internally focused journey. This is the part we’re going to talk about here.
My one year journey on the Clean Living path really got started in December, when my husband and I did my 14 Day Clean Living Cleanse together. Every day we talked about how we were doing, journaled, weighed in and measured our success. After the holidays, I did another cleanse and a 7 Day Weight Loss Cleanse. I also incorporated excercise. (!!!) For me, this is big. I have not exercised on a regular basis since before I met my husband nine years ago. At that time, I was a big runner. I ran every day and loved it. Unfortunately, life comes at you fast, and two kids later, I’m overweight and out of shape. I’m also turning 42 in a few short months. Wow. Where did the time go, and what the hell happened to my body? I’ve contemplated these and other important questions, and begging the universe for answers.
What I discovered is this: I am not alone in this. Most of the women I know are feeling like the low man on the totem pole of life. Keeping up with the demands of work and family is rigorous and exhausting. Just getting everyone up, dressed, fed and out the door in the morning requires military drill sergeant skills. For years I have dreamed of carving out some time for me. I’ve examined the schedule and just never seemed to find a way to make it work . I know women who exercise regularly, and who also happen to look fantastic in a bikini well into their 40′s. So I sat and pondered the question: what’s the difference? Other than a waist, flat stomach and great thighs…what do they have that I don’t? The answer: Internal Focus.
I found mine. We’re going to find yours, too. According to my daily journal, I have exercised 18 out of the last 23 days. I am stronger, thinner, and happier. I didn’t change anything about my life, or my schedule. I just did it. At first, my family was a bit suspicious of all this new “me time”, but I stuck to my plan (integrity) and pressed on. About ten days in, my husband sat down and watched me do a 55 minute intense weight loss yoga workout. I got the best motivation and validation of my life! My husband told me how proud of me he is, how he admires my dedication, strength and focus. Wow! That’s almost better than a waist!
The big truth, here is that most of us have a host of reasons why we just can’t work in a regular work out. We can. We just need to be told that it’s okay to take our eyes off the laundry for one hour. It is okay, and it is a requirement if you’re going to succeed in getting the health and the body you want. You must focus on you. For me, this was a big realization. I really noticed this focus during my last Cleanse…every day I spent journaling my every move, thinking about my day, how I felt, what I ate…It was all about me. And I liked it. I really started to notice and appreciate how great it felt to think about ME so much.
This is part of the Clean Living program, and it will become part of your life. Start today. Get a journal, start writing every day about you. What you ate, how you feel, what you did today. Start to feel how good it feels to think about you for a few minutes. Wait till you see how good it feels to eat well, exercise and discover the body you were in nine years ago!!
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